For almost my whole life I knew pretty much exactly what I wanted to do, where I wanted to be, since too small. It changed like most people but I always loved all the options, I was just constantly finding better ones.
When I came to college I was heavily considering Secondary Ed in English until I discovered I could work for cities without being an architect. I LOVE architecture but have the math skills of a small child. I discovered planning. Which works hand in hand with architecture but less say.
I thought I was going to go to Tufts University in Boston for Planning and Environmental Planning and Policy. I really want to. Truly. But then funding became an issue. I will get maxed at $20,000 in grad school loans, and Tufts is $30/yr. I knew CU Denver had a program but was really hoping for out of state.
Today, in a Building Environment class, someone showed this picture of some beautiful architecture and that piece of me that always wanted to be an architect came out. I feel lost in these two things I am so passionate about.
I have declared to the world so many times I will go to Boston and nothing will stop me and now I feel like I will be falling short of what I had planned if I don’t go. But at CU Denver there is a planning and architecture dual program so I could decide what I liked more.
God, the real world is approaching quickly and as much as I was excite for it, financial obstacles have really stunted my dreams I feel.
Maybe staying here won’t be bad for me. I just want to be the best. And I KNOW I can and will be.
I will figure it out. Don’t you worry Tumblverse.
Like I actually have followers. Hahaha!